Heavenly Father
You show me love, when I myself felt
Unloved, and unlovable.
And in the end taught me the true meaning of this sacred act.
You are the lighthouse in the distance when I was lost in the darkness.
You are the quiet voice in my mind when I question life’s obstacles,
And didn't understand what way to turn.
You give me off ramps when I was going the wrong direction , and on ramps
to get me back on track.
You gave me encouragement when I did not want to get back up from defeat
Because you knew of the difficulties I had yet to overcome.
You taught me that a no, is most likely because you have a better way
And not because you did not want me have that answer to a prayer.
You gave me a gift of feeling others feeling to better understand my own,
To become a more compassionate person, and to lend a helping hand to those in need.
You have taught me to just not seek you when things go wrong, but with every aspect of my life.
You have made me aware to pray, not just for family and friends, but for my enemies and those
That seek my destruction, or seek to persecute me.
You have started to create Patience in a vessel that once held little, as well
As self awareness of actions when none previously existed .
You are a beacon of bright light In a world filed with darkness!
And in whom I grown in faith and strength and love!
Thank you Father, I Love You
Dear God,
I am broken, I am lost, the pain I sense from this word
The pain of the children and the atrocities committed against them cause me much pain.
The corruption that occurs in our government, and the abuses of humanity is more than I can bare.
But that all fails to compare to the sins I commit against You.
Try as I must, to fight these, the darkness of this world seems to drag me backwards Into its deep abyss.
For that I am so deeply sorry, I’m sorry for the ill feelings towards others,
For the Ill words, for the immoral thoughts and acts. I’m sorry for not giving, I’m sorry for things done in past lives and actions.
Lord God forgive me, cleanse me of my sins and ability to commit more.
Lord you have shown me much, you have guided me through many raging storms, you have held my hand in many of times. How did I repay your kindness, in sin.
I lord may not at times feel that I am worthy of your forgiveness but I know you might see otherwise.
Lord if it is your will guide my path, my ways, my words and my actions.
Lord, I am scared for what lies ahead for this world, not just for me but others.
Lord I pray for all even those that wish me harm, I pray the criminals face justice but also seek you and your love.
Lord I pray for those that fight the evil when all seems lost, I pray for every hair on every head
In every country.
Lord I pray for my family, my friends and those that mocked me,
I pray for peace to replace war, for love to replace hatred, for justice to replace criminality
Lord God these written words my never see your beautiful eyes but my thoughts and heart truly will.
Lord thank you, with love your servant
If You Have Eyes
If you have eyes that truly see you have a great grasp just at how broken this world seems.
If your ears are truly open then you are no doubt hearing the cries of those in pain.
And if your heart is open to the empath senses God created you with, then you also feel the pain of the broken.
The hatred, brokenness the lies, cheating, divisiveness have taken your hope, your dreams and maybe your faith. We are all just sitting back praying for justice, for answers for a sign from God that he will end this entire nightmare. We are expecting a miracle! We as Christians have forgotten something,
The miracle has already been granted, we just need to get on our knees and ask for it. As Individuals, as communities and as a country, and the entire world, then we must believe as if it has come to past.
God has already gotten me to this point, it’s why I keep going In this fight. It’s why I won't back down.
He has heard the cries of the world, he has heard the prayers, for it will be Biblical, Glory be to God. If having faith In God and not man, or the courts or the justice department makes me crazy, then trust me I have no desire to be sane! God has heard our cries for the children and victims of Human Trafficking. He has heard our cries over the covid and forced vaccine. He has seen the injustices, the Treason and high crimes. Despite our wayward journey in life, and turning our back to his ways, our most loving God has heard us.
Why has he aloud these things to happen? Simply one does not change until at the brinks of self destruction. So for us to term to him we must have had to look ourselves in the mirror and want to change. So if you believe that man can only change this world with the help of our Father in heaven and not solely on our own efforts then spread the word.
Our Father
We thank you for your patience, for the your hearing our cries and forgiveness of our sinful ways.
We thank you for you unfailing love. Lord we are sorry for our crimes against each other, for the hatred that divided us from you. For each and every sin we committed.
Lord this problem is far bigger here than we could possibly fix on our own. It is of both this world and the spiritual, and far beyond our comprehension. So Lord God hear our cries for this Nation and every Nation as we rid this world of this evil. We ask this in your name
Amen.
Angels and my Soul
I have for what seems like forever,
Thought and been under the impression that our souls,
Are not only a extension of God but is who we are.
To put is simply, we are a spirt (a soul) that has a human host,
We are not a human that has a soul.
I have also felt that, that soul is part of God himself
It is the light of God Himself given to us upon the instance of life shared between a man and a women.
This explains at least to me why I have always fought so hard against abortion.
He, God has given us a part of himself, and we desecrate that gift.
This view on our souls may also explain why
I don't see people’s skin color.
See if you see someone’s soul, aka the light of God,
Then we have no color, have no gender, have no height issues
No weight issues. Just a energy.
But I never understood how angels fit into all this.
That is until I heard a video from a sweet Irish Catholic lady.
Who has claimed to have seen Angel’s sense birth.
She wrote a book called “Angel’s in my Hair”.
Her claim is warming, and uplifting but also perplexing.
She said Angel’s have no soul, that they are creatures created by God.
Created for specific purposes, each souls has one a guardian angel,
And in fact some Angel’s only show up in certain times of the year.
This wonderful sweet lady made one other claim that I have felt for far to long.
That is this dimension we live in, is changing. It is transcending to another level.
She also said that America is a very special place like no other on this planet.
It has a vibration that comes from it's people.
Emmett Speelman
It's A Good Day
When your eyes open and your feet hit the floor after a night’s sleep, it’s a good day!
When you first smell is of fresh brewed coffee, and then with great anticipation you taste the first sip, it's a good day!
When you wake early enough that the sky is still full of stars, and with coffee in hand he sit and watch shooting stars fall like the happy tears of God they are, it's a good day!
When your day is full of stress, and a stranger looks you in the eye and smiles, it’s a good day
When you day is bad, stressful or trying, smile and someone, for it’s a good day.
When your child comes to you, with pain or tears or just for advice, trust me, it’s a good day!
When the sun rises, even on cloudy rainy days, it’s a good day!
When a good day falls on Friday, it’s a good day!
But when that day is Thee “Good Friday" then it’s not a good day, but a Great Day!
Emmett Speelman
Father to Son
Father God, I come to you as a troubled son comes to his father.
I come as one who is lost , the enemy pulls at what is most precious to me.
For as a father, the enemy pulls at my son and his family.
For In youth lacks the experience and wisdom of age, as I am to you , held most precious, so is he is to me. But also like me, sometimes lost, and not sure of your voice, for the evil of this world is most heavy. But maybe in a small way, I get a minute glimpse at how the Heavenly Father feels when we as his sons and daughters go astray. I wonder Father , does your heart breaks like mine, when children go astray? Does your eyes shed tears as mine, when your children lash out? Do you question weather you made the correct Choice , when reason and compassion leads to confrontation, as I do him?
But father as your scriptures teaches us, and as my faith leads me, I also understand that our ways are not your ways, neither is our timing like your timing. And as high as the heavens are to earth so are your ways to our ways, and your timing to our timing. Father I know all things can lead to the light of God, if we have eyes to see, and ears to hear. Lord God I plead the blood of Jesus for protection over my son and his family. I call down the Full Armor of God for protection against the darkness that leads him astray.
Father, my Aba father, I bow before you, and seek your mercy for times I have failed you. I bow in repentance for the sins I have committed against you. For every year I have caused you, every broken heart, I humbly bow and . For you are a merciful Father, and know and understand my affliction, you hands guide me. Your light guides my footstep, for when I fall you comfort me, and pick me . In you we seek shelter
Emmett Speelman
Time To See
Oh Father in heaven, how my heart longs to see the true light of your people.
Father, we can see, with our eyes the colors or pigments of the skin, but we fail to see glorious light of the Lord that radiates from one’s heart.
Father we can see the colors of one political view, but we fail to see the pain they have from a broken heart.
Father we can see the difference of economy classes but fail to see the color of our blood all weighs the same, for we are all judged by Your Son.
Father we can see what we want to see, or what we are told to see, but fail to see how those judgments hurts and divides this nation.
Oh, Father in heaven, how does my heart break for your children that fail to see, with the heart.
How long Lord until the shackles of slavery are broken and the hearts of your children are fixed upon you?
How long until you hear our cries and answer our prayer?
Father helps us to see, see the things we don't, the things we miss, either little or big.
Father open our hearts to the cries of those in need, to those whom hearts are broken, or pockets are empty.
Father help us to see the spirit of God, let it take up residence in our hearts and minds.
Father, I bow at your feet, for you are a gracious God, but I beg for the things in this earth that keep your people bound to please be broken.
Father help us see, not just with our eyes, but with an open and loving heart.
Emmett Speelman